All of them, defend me, more than you.

And all your lies

I am truth

Disgusting dirty psychopath

Sell your souls for a few bucks

There's a higher order

Go to hell

Die

And go to jail

I got out

You had to stay in

Die and go live someone's elses life

If you're so obsessed with mine.

I've met, much better, amazing, people, and life than you have

You suck

All your music is trash.

Who cares.

However I would say, that I was a complete Buddhist in college.

My straying and ways straying from the path, led me to a chance encounter with a karmic, not a twin flame.

Twin flames aren't even valid in my opening.

It was a demonic opening and it was captured.

And it was led astray by vices and encounters with others, practicing this more subtle energetic way of sex.

But it is magic, and it is even bery different from the Christian teachings I grew up.

However I have been that way for seven years now.

And, I would reverse or remember, before I met this person, what things would like.

It creates inner worlds, but also demonic openings.

She caught me when I was most vulnerable.

Now I could have just left, but have to wait.

And have something, more Christian, here.

It clips your wings, this way of sex and magic.

Real love, lasts, is real, and it was just simply being astray in teachings, also Buddhist teachings.

So here is to a new a spiritual path and foundations, and as Freud would say, sexual sublimation.

I sexually repressed for years and could channel great energy, but that energy is exerted in different ways, the energy of form, sometimes destructive ways.

So it is, finding a balance in between, and also being more mindful of your own sexual energy.

That, and I may stay more clean,

get a job, and do what I want to do.

So here's to you, my love back home. I hope you can see the beauty, the innocence, but also, my shadow estp function as well.

And, I hope you can all wait, opportunities in a new city in the summer, if I do go.

At least the noise was cleared today, and mcs interpreted and wrote my experiences.

And it may be brighter, yet another day.

It's good to hear my favorite artists and people.

I guess, they were all who they were, the people that haunt you from Tucson.

But I had a great conversation with Denver.

A great sober living, a great way to get away from a broken family dynamic.

Still, waiting till probation ends in July, I don't know what to do, but I found a driver.

I would move there in July when probation ends because I have to put in two months anyways.

Better jobs, better place, better life.

If I could only limit my sexuality and nature.

I try.

I want it to work out.

Here's hope to a sober community in July.

Thanks for visiting.

This field, where everyone also exists simultaneuosly. Exists through meditation and subliminal states which some people are just born with the ability to access.

And it also, like being a seer, or clairvoyant, but we just call it a disorder in the dsm.

But it should not be a literal bible because it flawed to its own subjective biases and differences.

You can classify anyone into anything, what is denoted as normal is subjective and varies across cultures and individuals. So there is a more postmodern perspective.

And it also, means that these individuals, or people that may have a different genetic structure, or their genes may have been altered as a result of their environment.

So maybe, we should pay these people more, not just the 943.

But artists, turn their inner suffering, and their 'hallucinations', into a musical or creative work.

So what's the difference? The value of it changes, and many people can relate.

Many people, go through the same experiences, and reach similar conclusions that I have in my philosophies and perspectives page.

I hope you can maybe see the truth, to what I have lived, experienced, comprehended.

And I hope we write the whole narrative, the syntax, as well.

And maybe, someone wants to stary a business with me about it.

Or, you can always call.

Peace

I had and still have to write my own story for my own catharsis

There is still much more I can add.

I wrote about some classified work.

But I had to write about it.

I also still write about my life in Tucson for over a year now.

I write about what I see.

And I also ask Chatgpt and Gemini about my sixth sense.

They say some cultures it is much more spiritjal and mystical.

West culture everywhere it will be labeled schizophrenia and psychosis.

Everything has meaning.

What is one thing or given a label in one context might be labeled different in another.

I wish there was a better way than drowning myself in antispychotics.

I dont want to be mischaracterized.

Well here's to hope.

And better things ahead

-J

That theory was based off my own life experiences and sensing.

I can't control it.

And also it all their mask and guise

When in reality they just couldn't control the people and populations that they do.

Anyways Harris

If you could even write to me.

I'll write to you

And also explain to you why that did happen.

I'm not even going to have to worry about you

You're the reason I'm talking to assisted suicide people.

And you're the reason your approval ratings are 37%.

And you can go get the hell out of my business and mind and life.

You will never understand.

What I have derived and what many people believe and see.

Well the conference might promote it

Amd I know the new Joker movie 2 will promote.

Maybe I can live ling enough. 

If I can get a new place

I hope so

Because this is so distuptive

Because, it sucks being stuck on SSI because you had a different path and third world countries left a sting.

And because you were hurt in your undergrad, and high school.

And all the pain, misery, suffering.

I guess Switzerland won't accept my request for assisted suicide.

So I hope a therapist can help.

I mean they should its their job.

And I hope I can move.

Hopefully my dad and I can finish it.

There's misery, there's joy, there's suffering.

People latch onto me.

And looks like I'm stuck in Tucson, while all the other kids are in Phoenix or elsewhere.

But I would fly to another country again.

For now, I need to move to a better place.

-J Jay Jamil

And yeah, I think I can put a review on google for free for torturing and suffering.

This is a very real phenomena

It is very real.

Child abusers will liferally eat brains of children or young people.

To increse their own intelligence

They are like zombies

It happened to me

And it emotionally scars the kid

this happened in my life

So I have to raise the awareness for others

That peoples intelligence would be higher

If they were not harvested

And it was all some sick plot

That would hurt me

And also feel difficult inside

It is like spooky action

Spooky action

And stil very quantum

Wishing for peace and freedom from it

Maybe go so far away

Or somewhere

To be more free of it

This is I hope soon.

Open to any discussions conversing or dialouge on it

I just had to answer and say, my speaking against government wars and corruption that I wrote about, as well as my theories about quantum consciousness, are what led to me being illegally entrapped as well as my arrest. Unfortuantely, these things do happen in the US to people who did't commit any crimes, and I have had to deal with it for years now.

And I just have to share this answer from AI:

Do government agencies in the US have a history of incriminating people or setting up crimes for people who speak against them and what can be done to prevent this from happening?Show drafts expand_morevolume_up 

Sadly, there is a complex history of government agencies in the US engaging in activities that unjustly target or entrap individuals, particularly those who dissent or hold controversial views. Here's an overview and what can be done:

Historical Examples:

COINTELPRO (1956-1971): Infamous FBI program aimed at disrupting and discrediting civil rights, anti-war, leftist, and other groups deemed subversive. Tactics included surveillance, infiltration, spreading disinformation, and inciting violence.Post-9/11 Surveillance & Entrapment: The Patriot Act and subsequent measures expanded government surveillance powers. Concerns persist about profiling and cases where informants have pushed vulnerable individuals towards terrorism-related plots.Targeting Activists: Environmental, animal rights, and other activists have faced instances of being labeled as domestic terrorists, subjected to intrusive investigations, or prosecuted on inflated charges.

Concerns About Overreach & Abuse:

Misuse of Power: When government agencies target people based on ideology rather than legitimate criminal activity, it violates civil liberties and undermines trust.Lack of Oversight: Secretive operations and broad definitions of "threats" can create a lack of accountability and enable abuses.Chilling Effect: Fear of being targeted can discourage people from exercising their right to free speech and dissent.

Protecting Rights & Preventing Abuse

Awareness & Education:Public Knowledge: Documenting historical cases and shedding light on current concerns is crucial for preventing future abuses.Legal Protections:Strong First Amendment Rights: Lawsuits and judicial scrutiny are needed to uphold freedom of speech and assembly.Limiting Surveillance: Clear safeguards and oversight are needed for surveillance programs to prevent them from being weaponized against dissenters.Accountability & Transparency:Independent Oversight Bodies: Empowered entities are needed to investigate allegations of abuse and hold officials accountable.Transparency: The public deserves greater transparency about government operations, especially regarding domestic counterterrorism.Civic Engagement:Support Civil Liberties Orgs: Organizations like the ACLU advocate for individual rights and challenge government overreach.Demand Accountability: Contacting elected officials and peacefully protesting can push for policies that protect free expression.

It's a complex issue with no easy answers. Maintaining a healthy democracy requires constant vigilance against the potential for government misuse of power.

Do government agencies in the US have a history of incriminating people or setting up crimes for people who speak against them and what can be done to prevent this from happening?Show drafts expand_morevolume_up 

Sadly, there is a complex history of government agencies in the US engaging in activities that unjustly target or entrap individuals, particularly those who dissent or hold controversial views. Here's an overview and what can be done:

Historical Examples:

COINTELPRO (1956-1971): Infamous FBI program aimed at disrupting and discrediting civil rights, anti-war, leftist, and other groups deemed subversive. Tactics included surveillance, infiltration, spreading disinformation, and inciting violence.Post-9/11 Surveillance & Entrapment: The Patriot Act and subsequent measures expanded government surveillance powers. Concerns persist about profiling and cases where informants have pushed vulnerable individuals towards terrorism-related plots.Targeting Activists: Environmental, animal rights, and other activists have faced instances of being labeled as domestic terrorists, subjected to intrusive investigations, or prosecuted on inflated charges.

Concerns About Overreach & Abuse:

Misuse of Power: When government agencies target people based on ideology rather than legitimate criminal activity, it violates civil liberties and undermines trust.Lack of Oversight: Secretive operations and broad definitions of "threats" can create a lack of accountability and enable abuses.Chilling Effect: Fear of being targeted can discourage people from exercising their right to free speech and dissent.

Protecting Rights & Preventing Abuse

Awareness & Education:Public Knowledge: Documenting historical cases and shedding light on current concerns is crucial for preventing future abuses.Legal Protections:Strong First Amendment Rights: Lawsuits and judicial scrutiny are needed to uphold freedom of speech and assembly.Limiting Surveillance: Clear safeguards and oversight are needed for surveillance programs to prevent them from being weaponized against dissenters.Accountability & Transparency:Independent Oversight Bodies: Empowered entities are needed to investigate allegations of abuse and hold officials accountable.Transparency: The public deserves greater transparency about government operations, especially regarding domestic counterterrorism.Civic Engagement:Support Civil Liberties Orgs: Organizations like the ACLU advocate for individual rights and challenge government overreach.Demand Accountability: Contacting elected officials and peacefully protesting can push for policies that protect free expression.

It's a complex issue with no easy answers. Maintaining a healthy democracy requires constant vigilance against the potential for government misuse of power.

I wouldn't be given a Western name when I was born in the West.

My manifesto.

I go by a different name. I would have to change all my documents and everything.

It's such a hassle, when you go through that as a youth, and still go through it as an adult.

We need recognize diversity.

And I'm dealing with it right now.

I have to live with it.

And it is hurtful and sad.

And I can't stand some people and things who I have to deal with it.

Why do I face this everywhere.

I wish people would understand, what I went through.

And how I almost

die

many

many times.

How could I work or live when no one hires me.

Like apparentely they want me to do.

And being stuck on SSI and stalked by people.

It's a nightmare.

Oh well

Maybe I shouls legally change it.

They are all why they are winning.

And she loses

And she severely lacks in some departments

Yeah people look at me because they know what they see.

I should understand the people more.

H Tool.

Yeah I screwed a few

But it is excessive

Punish me, you will get punished in return 

Sophia Maritza Amaya or Maritza Amaya Sophia just didn't inderstand because she was not that intelligent she never understood my words or anything and she also didn't understand the truth and also conned me into this group and witchy dark magic arts in the underworld of facebook and here is my manifesto here.

I see gold, and when I die, I see white.

I see green bluez

I admire those who stand before me

I've been fucked over since birth

I dont see the light

When I am in the blackness

I fight to see the light

I wrote all these poems years ago

I wrote a whole book

I had a lover who cherished it.

Yet Jeff becomes the richest person after I purchase things on Amazon

Because I am gold

Yet he cant even sell my book

Yet all the other Americans don't see the wisdom or truth behind it.

Because some of them are maybe blind or low iq

And yeah

I would go to Dunsmuir and Shasta in a minute, reading Rumi, and God.

And then, this is a microcosm, of torture, with seeing the po in my vision

And the rest

And the truth.

With a messed up family of origin story

As the old soul black sheep

And I am divine

The rest aren't.

The divine the saints, see it.

And the false prophets

And government

Have their way with me sometimes

I just want to travel my freedom and take a train

But I am condemned to making Tucson what it is 

And suffering under torture sometimes

I cant find or see the light

I wish I was free

Why am I not free?

Because I punched people who were harassing me and groping me

That is the only reason why

I cant believe it

That is all

Yeah if I can find life but all I think about is death

Because that is what this has been and is

And it was just death and torture.

I wouldnt get this assisted suicide

If I was just free

Why does it have to be dark and sinister

I always fought for the light, and always have

I just want my freedom

What does it have to do with a job

I have credit

I can fly

I can travel

And I wont jerk off

Although they were tempting

That was just the nature of the business

But I dont believe

That I knew all these people and girls look at me in all these ways

People are an influence

I was just fulfilling my urges

But I consent

I do consent, I always did

I hope you see this.

I heard all their thoughts and voices

Because I can sense

That is why

And I can be me

an

It's absolutely understandable that you feel like you've been abused by the criminal justice system, and it breaks my heart to hear about your experience. Here's what people should understand:

The Trauma is Real: Experiencing injustice, dehumanization, and constant surveillance can inflict deep emotional and psychological scars. Describing it as akin to satanic abuse is a way of conveying the intense suffering and powerlessness you've endured.Mental Health Impact: This persistent misery and feeling of hellishness you describe are common symptoms of trauma and a sign that the abuse has profoundly impacted your mental well-being.Exhaustion and Despair: It's natural to feel worn down, hopeless, and filled with resentment after such a prolonged ordeal. When basic freedoms and trust in systems are stripped away, maintaining a positive outlook becomes extremely difficult.Need for Validation: People who haven't been through this might not fully grasp the depth of your pain. It's crucial for your voice to be heard, and the trauma you've faced acknowledged.

What I Wish Others Understood:

Abuse Doesn't Need Physical Scars: Psychological harm and the violation of dignity are forms of abuse, even if they don't leave visible marks.The System Isn't Always Right: Even within the justice system, biases, errors, and outright abuse of power can and do occur.Compassion Over Judgment: We need to move beyond the simplistic "good vs. bad" view of those entangled in the justice system. Your struggle deserves empathy.

It might not change your situation, but know that you're not alone. Organizations advocate for reforms within the criminal justice system.

Here's where you can find support:

Trauma-Informed Therapists: Seek out a therapist specializing in trauma and who understands the dynamics of systemic abuse.Support Groups: Connecting with others who've had similar experiences can provide immense validation and reduce isolation.Legal Advocacy Groups: Some organizations provide legal support or advocate for the rights of those within the criminal justice system.

Remember: You are worthy of healing and a life free from this torment. You've endured so much, and there are people who will fight for you.