Maybe, itwas moreso, some of you people trying to go through my past and my heritage.

And I am sorry for being mad, and you hearing it.

But this is the way and nature of life.

But what you did. pales in comparison.

To a fully abused life.

That I still havent recovered from

And I cant leave the country yet.

And I will live the burden till the feds go away and it all ends.

And I understand God.

To know that you should go to hell for what you did to me.

And what do you know about the true reality

And it should be more civil and just

Not so spiteful and hurtful.

And when can I leave this world

This shitty world.

Because they wouldnt let me die

I still havent died completely.

And I would go to heaven

You can just expect something in return when you use my bane to profit of your business.

And you can all go kiss your own asses.

I can actually tell some people how I feel about them.

And I think they are more intelligent to not take it personally or be sociopathic.

And these people are bright.

I was right.

And people do see me.

And youre wrong about the whole thing.

Whatever I said about you or anyone on this website.

Were just facts you dissing me for no good reason at all.

And my race.

Is much more complex than that.

And youre not him.

And that was all what you wanted to say about me.

So get over it:

Move on.

And I will threaten you to get out of here.

Bail you

And there are great people in this country

I dont know why you all have to victim

and you can just let me live

get your death note

and you can let him live

Trash clickbait scum

You havent done anything

Satanist

They dont understand God or any reality beyond themselves

AndGet the hell out of my town

For billions of years

Go to hell

It is pretty good.

To distract from all the faces and voices.

Sometimes, I think it was all vanity wellness center, in my inner world.

But you know, maybe, that is where straying from the past leads us.

And the old Buddhist parable of Mara.

To living in love

Well love is like that, where you want to love.

And to calm yourself, but we love.

So this is the way, a more giving way

While having the healthy space.

And some people, just need to feel, because they dont need to be in your space.

And you can just focus on what is right

What is holy

And a holy union

With God

Is just

Yeah well

I was tired of people stepping all over me

Taking advantage of a good heart

So I can have those thoughts

But control how I act

That is all

Control how you act

And those who wronged you

And those who were able to make amends

Why don't you make amends?

Did you not prescribe the program of recovery

It is about being more honest, more rigorous, more fair.

And you can be rough

While being sensitive

There is a balance

Got a handful from themselves.

Family and real people, are all you can rely on.

Can't rely on them to set up a catch and case.

And what more money do the politicians and JoeBiden need. FDR.

And do you actually ever read my words or speak to me?

If ever exchanging with you meant sonething.

Maybe, yiu should just let me be at peace in my own home, for once.

I battle the same demons everyday.

I'm grateful she thought about me and was nice enough to do that.

I admire her.

And the other one was always just plotting and scheming.

She ruined my graduate career. She played games and tricks, and lied, and has a bad heart.

Sophia Maritza Amaya. And the discriminatory professor.

They all ruined and hurt my life.

And they never apologized

Some thinkinf types dont have the self awareness to have a decent heart and morals.

And they haunt me everday.

I'm grateful for you.

Maybe there are some graduate options in july.

But I have a new certification.

And maybe I'll get the job in Taiwan. 

I'll block all of them out.

They can just work your jobs.

And have faith.

Because.

It was

wicked what was done to me.

My poems are my anguish, and you can get my poetry book at a low price, and some are free here.

Thank you for considering.

Have a good one.

As I drown.

By the democrats

And by the Harris rascist agendas

As well as just wanting to be free

And move

They have you in a cage

As if Joe Biden thinks you're some animal.

Where I just wanted to be free and roam, and I didn't even do anything.

Fuck the po

Fuck their administration.

They should make America more affordable and better

And fuck Schwartz dirty old geiser.

I dontwant people judging everything i write and also it isnt the real more or also i dont want people too be in much discord and also I wish you could just forgive me and forget about it and help me and not just cast it aside i have dissociation and i suffer and ive been hit and just want to be taken care of.

And i dont know if i should move because some people are worse they are worse and you are worse for an unbalanced environment and also the truth of the matter and what is actual.

In addition to my perspectives, on suffering, I hope I deserve better, and also need to be treated with equality and deserving of giving praise and recieving praise in return and pray for her and pray for those who help and dont let them tell you anything that you are not.

And dont let them try to sabotage you or destroy you and let them see the totality of things and not just the parts they want to prefer.

One wealth inequality and social justice system

It doesn’t pay to be ill in America. If you have any condition, and didn’t have enough work credits, you’re getting like 943 a month.

Especially if you’re on schizoaffective bipolar, like I am, it doesn’t pay a lot.

But people did pay you in other ways. Still I am left wondering behind why it would be so much more in a Scandinavian country, because they have better social welfare systems.

Unfortunately, we are so blind and easily greedy and masochistic.

And Bernie would have won had not the establishment democrats used their money and influence to buy elections and not make us a democratic socialist countries.

Mixed market socialism has proven to be the best economic system if you look at those countries and how the system is.

We should prize a government and populace that values its citizens social welfare over greed and consumption.

Unfortunately the rulers don’t want it to be that way. They want this dominating class and everyone else below it. It’s a club, and you ain’t in it.

And that is the sad state for me, what the club is, entails, and how my own early life mirrored it and also contributed to it.

And I don’t need these people doing these things to me. It should be a better and more profitable business, not just a system for the rich and powerful.

And it should be more equitable for all parties involved not just a certain few. And I wish I was born in the Scandinavian country with better class and economic systems.

Because I have an ethnic name, I am not given all the same opportunities, and because of generational curses.

So that is where it stands today, and where the class warfare is today, on our own soil.

And how could, one of the most powerful political countries, be so divided and unpeaceful, that is the question. When still so many in it are good.

After this vision

Doesnt mean how it is interpreted and I think I create these states through my actions.

I like to have sex

IT LOVES ME

i have a sexual desire.

And i believe I always was

open to all people

and beliefs

just wish I could have made it right 

my bad

God and good to see you

Miss you

I would meet you

And I thank you

and its all political maneuvering

and also the ways i have lived

i respect people and cultures

and love what you have done for me

and despite all the hell i receive

I am glad what you have done for me

although, the world got schocked in 2020.

and the good and the bad

and the truth is easy to see forgive me

let me rest

I can't wait till this whole nightmare is over.

You can at least understand what I have done or accomplished.

And see the truth of the matter.

That I earned my credentials.

I was caught in a bad situation.

And they were sabotaging me to begin with.

And setting me up.

And that was a whole show they have going on in your head and space.

Where in reality

If there is an invisible realm

An etheric realm.

People should be more honest and thoughtful in it.

And not hack all your files and use them.

Without the lies and the cheating.

And the truth

You always saw it

and you know the way

Problem is you attract too many along the way

And they follow every move you do

I will be smarter than them.

And parent is a narcissist.

I should have enough money to go away now.

its all a hallucination, bur was also much more vibrant and loving in the past before i wrote about all them.

and they are all gay

they were too

and i cant wait till this is done

in july

then u can do whatever i want

i got a much harsher sentence then anyone i knew

and people are good to me in my dreams last night

i love the dreaming state much more than waking state franklyz

and i got the medicines

herbal and chemical

so its a waiting game frankly

it was much more for you than others

im just ready to travel long term now and maybe get a pet but that would just be another thing that would limit me from traveling as much. so which one.

hallucination, illuminatti, and the chosen ones, the awakened ones, they have a relatiomships.

Please let me be well and at peace in my own home.

She is hot

Hopefully regards,

J

All of them, defend me, more than you.

And all your lies

I am truth

Disgusting dirty psychopath

Sell your souls for a few bucks

There's a higher order

Go to hell

Die

And go to jail

I got out

You had to stay in

Die and go live someone's elses life

If you're so obsessed with mine.

I've met, much better, amazing, people, and life than you have

You suck

All your music is trash.

Who cares.