1 year ten months in probation, and there is 2 months to go.

As the whole city, gets so dry, the cars and ant colony buzzing around.

And it gets so dull, I'm waiting to move.

So as in the Shawshank Redemption, it is the same story.

I found a place in Florida, I petition.

I contact all defense attorneys and associations.

Yet I have to see this same demon everyday, because that is what it is.

And the people are too busy to notice.

So my request for transfer or ending today.

I hope goes heard.

And maybe it was all like a boomerang, but I thought my karma was good now.

It is just, enduring the suffering and torture.

As I have my passport, my money,

and I am waiting for them.

To let me go.

I can't stand it anymore

It is pure suffering and torture.

Maybe most people.

Aren't as kind as you.

What on Earth did I do to them.

Are they psychopaths

why are they psychopaths

ehy am i so related to the war

she praised me

they all praise me 

why do uou even do this to me

what did i do to you

where god

this is all academic abuse

They are all the real pedophiles.

And I would be better off alone.

But they all follow me, well some of them, some of them are good.

And with money hard to come by

I need to get the hell away from all those power hungry control freaks and liars and losers who are

pedophiles and stalkers.

I hate them.

Was a bad thing

And they make it worse

By hurting me

And being pedophiles

And I know the truth of the matter.

You wouldnt know what to do without me

And I will be without thee

And he can be more honest

All of Joe Bidens world and problems

A NWO America destroying stooge.

And I

let the guide

Guide my way

I have to deal, with being so peaceful.

Then this demon attacking me.

Because he could never make amends.

Why is that impossible for some.

And the others who want to control your life and thoughts.

I think I was always much more educated and enlightened than that.

And they make me do all this.

And I can't find many things good in the world.

And they are bad people.

Trying to control me and

my whole lives and the thieves and murderers.

When I was always just.

The enlightened one.

I knew, about thay truth.

And that is why.

They try to haunt stalk and harass me.

And I can't do much about it.

What can I do.

No meds work.

It's a mess

a nightmare.

I find more solace in the dead.

And I'm landlocked.

I can't even leave the country.

And why can't I find anything good in this world.

I'd rather be in the next one. 

But they won't even let me do that.

So they circus around my head

Like I'm their parade.

Like

I'm their everything.

I just want peace love and understanding.

And freedom.

But this is what they did.

The psychopaths

Excessive

Unfair

Cruel

Unkind

God given rights

Should exist

So should the marijuana

And so should this society

Need to be rearranged

Until Im free

Probation is a lie

Maybe, itwas moreso, some of you people trying to go through my past and my heritage.

And I am sorry for being mad, and you hearing it.

But this is the way and nature of life.

But what you did. pales in comparison.

To a fully abused life.

That I still havent recovered from

And I cant leave the country yet.

And I will live the burden till the feds go away and it all ends.

And I understand God.

To know that you should go to hell for what you did to me.

And what do you know about the true reality

And it should be more civil and just

Not so spiteful and hurtful.

And when can I leave this world

This shitty world.

Because they wouldnt let me die

I still havent died completely.

And I would go to heaven

You can just expect something in return when you use my bane to profit of your business.

And you can all go kiss your own asses.

I can actually tell some people how I feel about them.

And I think they are more intelligent to not take it personally or be sociopathic.

And these people are bright.

I was right.

And people do see me.

And youre wrong about the whole thing.

Whatever I said about you or anyone on this website.

Were just facts you dissing me for no good reason at all.

And my race.

Is much more complex than that.

And youre not him.

And that was all what you wanted to say about me.

So get over it:

Move on.

And I will threaten you to get out of here.

Bail you

And there are great people in this country

I dont know why you all have to victim

and you can just let me live

get your death note

and you can let him live

Trash clickbait scum

You havent done anything

Satanist

They dont understand God or any reality beyond themselves

AndGet the hell out of my town

For billions of years

Go to hell

It is pretty good.

To distract from all the faces and voices.

Sometimes, I think it was all vanity wellness center, in my inner world.

But you know, maybe, that is where straying from the past leads us.

And the old Buddhist parable of Mara.

To living in love

Well love is like that, where you want to love.

And to calm yourself, but we love.

So this is the way, a more giving way

While having the healthy space.

And some people, just need to feel, because they dont need to be in your space.

And you can just focus on what is right

What is holy

And a holy union

With God

Is just

Yeah well

I was tired of people stepping all over me

Taking advantage of a good heart

So I can have those thoughts

But control how I act

That is all

Control how you act

And those who wronged you

And those who were able to make amends

Why don't you make amends?

Did you not prescribe the program of recovery

It is about being more honest, more rigorous, more fair.

And you can be rough

While being sensitive

There is a balance

Got a handful from themselves.

Family and real people, are all you can rely on.

Can't rely on them to set up a catch and case.

And what more money do the politicians and JoeBiden need. FDR.

And do you actually ever read my words or speak to me?

If ever exchanging with you meant sonething.

Maybe, yiu should just let me be at peace in my own home, for once.

I battle the same demons everyday.

I'm grateful she thought about me and was nice enough to do that.

I admire her.

And the other one was always just plotting and scheming.

She ruined my graduate career. She played games and tricks, and lied, and has a bad heart.

Sophia Maritza Amaya. And the discriminatory professor.

They all ruined and hurt my life.

And they never apologized

Some thinkinf types dont have the self awareness to have a decent heart and morals.

And they haunt me everday.

I'm grateful for you.

Maybe there are some graduate options in july.

But I have a new certification.

And maybe I'll get the job in Taiwan. 

I'll block all of them out.

They can just work your jobs.

And have faith.

Because.

It was

wicked what was done to me.

My poems are my anguish, and you can get my poetry book at a low price, and some are free here.

Thank you for considering.

Have a good one.

As I drown.