My life. My poetry, travel, and musings.

My life. My poetry, travel, and musings.


Philosophies and Perspectives

Philsophies from my writings

A discussion:  My visions and experiences in relation to novel philosophies, theories, and perspectives.                                              

Philosophies and Perspectives

Quantum Physics as Evidence to My Experiences, and Further Theories of the Mind

Where could I begin, in relation and reflection to my story, with theories and perspectives I will present. To have been connected and sensing the presence of some of the great thinkers of all-time, I hear them through the light that connects all souls. To hear them in their encouragement of me to provide evidence and new theories in light of my life story; is my calling. To note the connections between quantum physics and psychology, and to give explanations as evidence to my experiences, I will now do so.

As I am inspired by several of Jung’s great contributions and work to psychology and religion; the letters exchanged between the physicist Wolfang Pauli and Jung, in Atom and Archetype, provides some of the best explanations I have read. However I didn’t read the whole book, and this is not an academic novel. These are just my theories having attended a conference in consciousness, and having a degree in psychology.

To note, there is some dispute within the scientific community, how quantum physics is used in new age spiritual beliefs. But just as quantum physics takes place in ordinary objects, it can still exist in the mind and space. Even if we have not discovered some of the exact relation between quantum physics within the brain, as it continues to be debated and studied. In that it doesn’t mean that they don’t exist, and are still evidently related to psychology and the mind. I will now explain a bit about quantum physics in relation to psychology and the mind.

While classical physics is the study of movement and energy at the macroscopic level, with force and momentum being one example, quantum physics arose after the theory of relativity by Einstein, to explain occurrences that classical physics could not, at a more microscopic level. It would begin to be noted by physicists and scientists how particles at a subatomic level could act in different ways. One of the current debates and battles in quantum physics is ardent spiritualists using the term to explain mysticism, while hardline scientists disagree with the notion that it is purely scientific. This is what I observed.

My view, and one that I hope would ease this debate, is that quantum physics can and does exist in ordinary objects, independent of the observer. But that it also exists within the mind and space, through its mental happenings, and in relation to reactions produced by the mind and brain, which also consist of particles on a subatomic level. This seems to me the most reasonable explanation and valid furthering of the debate in this current dispute. I don’t think it is unreasonable to say, in that, just as we consist of the same elements of the universe as in ordinary non-sentient objects, we consist of the same particles as defined by quantum physics in many objects, but with other variables and elements which define our consciousness and sentience within them.

I believe this explanation I give is within reason, if materialist scientists and spiritualists use the same science of quantum physics, to explain things they have the focused view and study of. The goal being is for someone to further study the differences between quantum science and the mind, as opposed to objects such as computing, electricity, and others. The fact that science and spirituality can exist with one another, in this aspect is important to note. As we all know that our brains and minds can generate energy as a physical mechanism of its own. And also in my view, having attended conferences in consciousness, that if different people weren’t debating as much their truth in interpretation of quantum physics, that they could see the possibility that their theories aren’t mutually exclusive, then progress and greater discussion could be a result.

As an example to explain my own experiences, the theory of quantum entanglement is used often for spiritualists to explain connections and happenings of their experiences in space. From what I have read and gathered through experiments done on this subject, entanglement is defined as the experience of two particles interacting with one another within space, in a non-local position, that they can interact with one another over a distance. This could hold true for any ordinary object and happenings, but just like how the ‘observer effect,’ from Schrodinger’s experiments, can influence the result of a reaction, a happening in the mind such as telepathy or feelings of connected spirituality, is also the connection of energy as a distance, as a visceral reaction. The theories in quantum physics demonstrably prove experiences within spirituality, with the ‘many-minds and worlds theory,’ as a result of studies in quantum physics.

The basic ideas relating to my mind, is that particles, which I see often within my mind, can exist non-locally, and that these particles can experience quantum entanglement. That essentially particles or packets of energy can exist in space, and communicate with one another over a distance. This relates to parapsychological notions of the mind being able to see and sense energy within others, and in cases of telepathy, as these different particles or packets exist within space. The explanations of this form of energy in quantum physics, leads to a ‘many worlds and many minds’ interpretation of reality. The ‘observer effect,’ which is the observer’s influence and perspective in an event taking place,’ leads to the congruence with many worlds and minds within the observer, separate from their ordinary consciousness.

Perhaps in my view as a conclusion, we could find better ways with the sophistication of neuroimaging today, to study people’s minds similar to my own, that have deep spiritual or religious visions. Or, even if they aren’t in the nature of being religious, with individuals who simply do see things within and inside their mind. Measuring microscopic particles while measuring their brain activity, as they report what goes on in their mind, could help us understand, if for lack of a better word, hallucinations could have in relation to quantum particles. If such a theory of many worlds or minds corresponds to quantum physics; to give these theories more evidence and scientific data.

I will now note a further theory that has not been tested, but poses a question for further research. One interpretation I have of the observer effect, is the observer's role in seeing or studying light, and that there may be other forms of light we have not seen or experienced in another universe, in our only relative understanding of time and light. If we seek to understand commonalities in ‘hallucinations,’ that for one example exists in the vision of light seen by near-death experiencers, from some of the works of Dr. Ian Stevens, and others. The sheer number of experiences individuals have had in visions of heaven and this light since we began to record them, and today studied by researchers, demonstrate its evidence of existing, through qualitative and quantitative analysis.

And also, that there exists different forces of nature, within the mind and where it can go, independent but still in relation to the body and brain due to quantum entanglement. That quantum physics exists in ordinary physical laws and neuroscience as the materialistic scientists say, but also in the consciousness of the mind and space. The many different ways a universe can be, along with the observer effect, lead to these conclusions, with classical physics and neuroscience converging with views of time and light that are inherent within spiritual experiences.This in hope that potential avenues for further study may lead to new explanations and conclusions.

Within our history, we had some great thinkers in the early 20th century, such as Sigmund Freud and Carl Jung in psychology, and others such as Einstein, Tesla and Bohr in physics. Unfortunately, it would seem through promotion of other agendas, that money was allocated to materialism and power over the 20th century, that may have led us to stagnate in knowledge that could be found. If we were to truly scan more people’s brains as a project, to access regions that gifted people can access, we would make more progress. As may be the case, that the price for neurological scanning may decrease, so that it may be accessible to more people. With that note, I will continue from the proof of experiences similar to my own, with better methods in mental health.

Modern And Progressive Views on Mental Illness, Case Study and example of a subjective experience, with Evidence.

I have been to many mental health institutions, and I have drawn some conclusions from them. I hope the mental health system in our country is sufficient but can continue improving, with people with experiences like myself being given more hope and options in this world. I don’t often view conditions as diseases, but one’s discontent in a modern and disconnected world sometimes. I have learned of alternative medicines in my travels, and can envision hope and changes within the system, and through insurance companies, as it stands.

My view of mental illness, such as depression for example, is that these states and feelings are a disease of civilization and cognitive dissonance, just as much as they may be related to certain neurotransmitters of the brain. A state of conflicting values internally, in addition to societal distress, can manifest into a disease, which was a modern invention and not always present in our history. The issue with current treatment of illness is that we don’t actually always know how SSRIs and other medications work in the brain, thus lending to the conclusion and truth even psychiatrists make is that half the response of certain psychotropic medications is a placebo, for them to work. 

The debate of ‘nature vs. nurture,’ in mental illness can lead to disagreements and false claims on either end. In the book Nature via Nurture, evidence is given within the context of genes and neurology in nature, vs. environmental exposure. The truth lies in that genes are within the expression of the environment, as much as brain plasticity showing change in different environments and exposures. To note that early environmental exposures, have as much effect in the activation of certain genes that may be dormant, such as those expressed as a cause in different mental illnesses, veers away from a solely materialistic view. As in what may be contradictory fields of behaviorism is psychology, versus those in depth psychology with their focus on introspection, both can have as much influence in the changing of neurotransmitters, leading to the belief that mental illness such as a depression or schizophrenia, are not solely about an imbalance in neurotransmitters, despite some doctors, but not all, claiming so, with their ardent promotion of drugs they claim are the best answer.

Furthermore, In Saving Normal, a former psychiatrist who led work in the DSM, made many claims going against his profession, to the fringe of being an outsider. Along with the many points made, is the ‘for-profit’ nature of psychiatric medicine and pharmaceutical companies, which can be an issue among other fields of medicine too. Studies privately funded on medications, can have experimental progress if they are wanting a certain outcome. Many pharmaceutical companies have been involved in billion dollar lawsuits, for pushing certain drugs with dangers, or lack of evidence in efficacy.

Within this view in medicine, and deeper reflections. Most doctors do have the strong belief in helping their patients recover as much as they can. But as many things are, it is still a business that those in mental health and addiction medicine need to make a living off of. However, as is the case with any high-paying profession, there are many doctors who admit to being in their profession primarily because it pays well. But at the same time, there are also doctors, depending on their specialty as well, who advocate for cures that cost less but may not be as profitable, as opposed to others who only try to control symptoms with certain drugs, only under the evidence of expensive and privately-funded studies, that control or skew the outcome. One example of this is with the aforementioned SSRIs, with doctors admitting that half the response is a placebo. Also, the same chemical formation is modulated only very slightly, with the promise that it will have a better effect, which isn’t always the case. SSRIs also take 4-6 weeks to have some effect, meaning more money for those who make these drugs, and capitalism in medicine within Big Pharma. What if, we ask ourselves the question, why we don’t promote cures that take less time with certain medicine. 

To achieve this goal, there is a fringe but growing movement about psychedelic or psycholytic therapy, both involving hallucinogenic or dissociative drugs. For example, ketamine is growing as an evidently based cure for treatment-resistant depression, along with MDMA for PTSD and Autism, and lastly other hallucinogens such as psilocybin for depression and end-of-life anxiety. So why aren’t these novel treatments approved for depression? It is because they are rapid acting, requiring only one or a few treatments. If they work this rapidly, pharmaceutical companies and doctors won’t make as much money, because there is less of a long-term price incentive and investment, for drugs that are archaic, and cause damaging side effects.

In relation to psychedelic therapy, often with the hallucinogen allowing the individual to access subconscious content, and bring to light in consciousness. This therapy, and specifically ‘somatoform work,’ which allows the patient to access and emotionally process their feelings, with the therapist to help guide them objectively through their feelings.

So the companies push these treatments away, as they are a progressive form of treatment. Even when they are proven to be effective, a heavy price tag is put on them, unfortunately for people who would do well on them, if they were put more into practice.

This to me, with the experience I’ve had in healing my own PTSD, would create more peace with individual selves, and with more individual peace leading to collective peace. Imagine if we had our soldiers or others with old wounds heal with psychedelic or psycholytic therapy. If we could get rid of the for-profit enterprises in mental health, which would also require some changes in other sectors relating to the government changing the schedules of certain drugs, as these drugs have been demonstrated as evidence-based with clinical proof. Most importantly, with the right therapist leading with the right set and setting for the client. It would also lead to the evolution of thought, consciousness, and healthier ways of emotional processing, rather than psychological repression, which leads to problems for the individual and others. There are more sources promoting and expounding on this view, which I will mention and recommend reading. 

To answer to the point a hardline psychiatrist may say, that SSRIs and antipsychotics have some efficacy, I would reply that they to what doctors say themselves that they are blunted instruments with their attempt to hit a target, very old drugs that only mask symptoms like a psychiatrist will agree himself, and damage brain functioning along with a long list of side effects. While the novel approaches of psychedelics come with little to no side effects, target areas and emotions more effectively for depression, and that they not only take much less time to work for the patient, but also promote neurogenesis among brain regions, creating new connections that allow for increase in thought, perception, and empathy, along with their instinctive wisdom. 

I now will change topics other than the condition of depression, in explaining another condition of what true hallucinations are. Along with what I had mentioned in the previous chapter, I will provide a case study connected to the notion of alternate perception consisting of the mind in relation to quantum physics.


Very recently, I had met a man, who was relatable to me in some shared experiences. As I commented to ask him what his delusions specifically were. He replied that he would, ‘see a bunch of regular people, famous people, and clones of them,’ to the striking similarity of what I saw. I have also heard others over the course of all my stays at different treatment centers and psych wards, remark similar statements, in line with his most specific statement that related to mine, most similar to my own visions.

If the same hallucination, or ‘delusion,’ happens to many different people, independent and distinguished from one another, what are the chances that perhaps there's some truth behind them, that the commonality in descriptions occurs with more than one person over a population? And to a further point that these people may be ill if their visions cause particular disturbances in themselves and others. But by the same token, if a census were taken, many individuals would report similar occurrences, so by reasoning that there must be some actuality of them existing to a certain extent, yet perhaps still undefined and unexplored.

If I see what I believe is a vision of someone, and with human cloning beginning to advance in 2020 as it has, is there perhaps another alternate version of this person as innumerable as the possibilities of alternate selves within another universe? Or as one may suspect, a computer-generated version of someone for mass consumption. I have no issue with their means or what may seem to be my outlandish claims, but a quick Internet search will yield those who have reached similar conclusions or believe that clones and robots are being  created for various reasons, one of them being for their protection. I myself, not even being famous, have also felt that I may have been cloned, or images of mine that are on the Internet, may replicate themselves, as an image on the Internet can be used for any purpose. That part of myself and consciousness on the Internet exists as a code within, that can be replicated with the bits and particles of the pixels that are my images.

So with this understanding to further the point, that there may be some truth behind these so-called hallucinations, and that they do not solely lie in the excess production of dopamine, as commonly believed by psychiatric medicine. But they also have relation to artificial intelligence and quantum physics, and with other rapid advances in technology such as virtual or augmented reality, where one can remotely view objects or people from a distance. With them, the key area to study for an explanation, the relation of quantum physics and happenings in psychology to certain neurotransmitters in the brain, along with the connection of consciousness to rapid advances in technology that alter our brains and myriad of perceptions. These connections raise new challenges within psychiatry and psychology; these new frontiers in human consciousness that will come with further study.

To give belief and recognition to those with visions, in hopes that may be further research, so that they are not merely labeled delusions, but have a deeper meaning and connection to the collective unconscious, is one of my intentions in presenting my story and views mentioned. For example, in a union of this notion to Eastern medicine, to explain a psychosis pertaining to a ‘Kundalini syndrome’, or experiences of a changing higher order of consciousness with the acknowledgement of chakras and energy centers in Eastern medicine, with pharmacology being a piece but only one of a greater puzzle.

Which would raise the question, and what would be the defining quality of calling one ill or mad, for their ‘hallucinations of delusions.’  In the notice that I had read in some readings by Dr. Jung, is that the differentiation between visions within the psyche and self, or rather the structural integrity of an independent self in relation to vision, to still understand the world in its physicality, is the defining factor. As long as I do understand where I am and what’s going on, not myself nor anyone should be called delusional or mad if they are educated to the differences. 

Also, the ignorant view after all that has been said and experienced by countless generations of man, would be to call visions only hallucinations in their entirety. Further, with the gray line between being called sane or not, that

On wealth, inequality

   On wealth, inequality, and social justice system

It doesn’t pay to be ill in America. If you have any condition, and didn’t have enough work credits, you’re getting like 943 a month.

Especially if you’re on schizoaffective bipolar, like I am, it doesn’t pay a lot.

But people did pay you in other ways. Still I am left wondering why it would be so much more in a Scandinavian country, because they have better social welfare systems.

Unfortunately, we are so blind and easily greedy and masochistic.

And Bernie would have won had not the establishment democrats used their money and influence to buy elections and not make us a democratic socialist country.

Mixed market socialism has proven to be the best economic system if you look at those countries and how the system is.

We should prize a government and populace that values its citizens' social welfare over greed and consumption.

Unfortunately the rulers don’t want it to be that way. They want this dominating class and everyone else below it. It’s a club, and you ain’t in it.

And that is the sad state for me, what the club is, entails, and how my own early life mirrored it and also contributed to it.

And I don’t need these people doing these things to me. It should be a better and more profitable business, not just a system for the rich and powerful.

And it should be more equitable for all parties involved, not just a certain few. And I wish I was born in a Scandinavian country with better class and economic systems.

Because I have an ethnic name, I am not given all the same opportunities, and because of generational curses.

So that is where it stands today, and where the class warfare is today, on our own soil.

And how could, one of the most powerful political countries, be so divided and unpeaceful, that is the question. When there are still so many in it that are good.

What would having all these people who have targeted me since birth and young age mean anyways. Did it mean I was clairvoyant, and that there is nothing wrong with me, there is more wrong with the established narrative and and promoted goods and beliefs.

If I did see all these celebrity figures, which I did remember and see very vividly, does it mean these people owe me in some way? Because I still see Tom Brady, I still see Lebron James, all the others I mentioned in the book.

And swear to you in my belief in God and a higher power that I am not making this all up. It all really happened. Yet I know why, I have so many impressions on Amazon, because they tell all of the people and me to cover it up and not mention the celebs. Not that it matters that they are celebrities anyways, but because it is the illuminati and all-seeing eye, and I see regular everyday people too

Einstein appeared to me in another vision. He was always very bright to me. He said you're a male, and there is nothing wrong with you. That gave me hope, that maybe I don’t need to drown myself in antipsychotic meds, but that this, what I have seen all my life, is just an astral etheric plane and alternative reality, an akashic field, as I learned in college.

And everyone hijacks the all-seeing eye symbol anyways. From some facebook groups, to the celebs, but it is really just an eye, and a symbol, it can mean different things to different people.

And the visions I do see, of ets and angels and demons, those are much more revealing to me, then visions of a secret society. Forget any secret society that I have always seen, it is because I have a family here but my origins come from another planet, this is true, and I have had many lifetimes, this is everyone else’s first lifetime.

And I was enlightened, I was reincarnated, I did go through esoteric and shamanic training. So this is what I am, and the government hates me for it, because I am not as dumb as the average American and that realm.

So I truly would escape to another land or country, I have to weigh and consider my options and if I could get a job or how long the money would last me. 

Screw the secret societies, screw the fake, there are good places in the states, and they should all be more honest and either pay me, reach out to me, donate to me, or make a thread that is better than the lies on government platforms, because they all push twist and distort the narrative.

These are facts, and this is what I’m facing, real visiona, real torture, real lies. Wish me well, wish me good luck, as I upload more notes and discussions.

The factual matter of my psychological research as well, as my observations and promising vision that would be so enduring if it was applied. It would be much more promising, than crony capitalism, and the inflation, and money laundering that the government causes. It all goes to the ruling class.

Here I am, the lonesome one, as I try to survive, endure, and live. I believe it would be much more pleasant if more people for once could honor my skills as well as my clairvoyance and not lump it under the category or database of ssi that only pays 943 a month.

This, my second theory, is to have a greater sum and advantage and lump sum for people with disabilities and a more comprehensive social welfare system but that would never happen in America because it is about dark money. Or a more prosperous society, and higher universal basic income, that isn't so corrupted.

And where would I begin, that I don’t want to be haunted or stalked any further, I would like things to just generally be about love and higher consciousness.

So my practical solution, raise taxes on the highest earners, and then funnel the money and pass an extensive bill to give a larger sum of money to people with qualifying circumstances or are in poverty.

Or, a trust fund, that the highest earners can donate to for anyone who sees or knows, anything.

And we could do more for people, who need it.