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14 Mar 2024

I have never been so attacked persecuted for an idea and a theory

That theory was based off my own life experiences and sensing.


I can't control it.


And also it all their mask and guise

When in reality they just couldn't control the people and populations that they do.


Anyways Harris

If you could even write to me.


I'll write to you

And also explain to you why that did happen.


I'm not even going to have to worry about you

You're the reason I'm talking to assisted suicide people.


And you're the reason your approval ratings are 37%.

And you can go get the hell out of my business and mind and life.


You will never understand.

What I have derived and what many people believe and see.


Well the conference might promote it

Amd I know the new Joker movie 2 will promote.


Maybe I can live ling enough. 

If I can get a new place

I hope so

Because this is so distuptive

12 Mar 2024

I dont even want you to judge what I have said

Because, it sucks being stuck on SSI because you had a different path and third world countries left a sting.


And because you were hurt in your undergrad, and high school.


And all the pain, misery, suffering.


I guess Switzerland won't accept my request for assisted suicide.


So I hope a therapist can help.


I mean they should its their job.


And I hope I can move.


Hopefully my dad and I can finish it.


There's misery, there's joy, there's suffering.


People latch onto me.


And looks like I'm stuck in Tucson, while all the other kids are in Phoenix or elsewhere.


But I would fly to another country again.


For now, I need to move to a better place.


-J Jay Jamil


And yeah, I think I can put a review on google for free for torturing and suffering.

11 Mar 2024

Brain eating

This is a very real phenomena

It is very real.

Child abusers will liferally eat brains of children or young people.

To increse their own intelligence

They are like zombies

It happened to me

And it emotionally scars the kid

this happened in my life

So I have to raise the awareness for others

That peoples intelligence would be higher

If they were not harvested

And it was all some sick plot

That would hurt me

And also feel difficult inside

It is like spooky action

Spooky action

And stil very quantum

Wishing for peace and freedom from it

Maybe go so far away

Or somewhere

To be more free of it

This is I hope soon.



Open to any discussions conversing or dialouge on it

11 Mar 2024

For clarity

I just had to answer and say, my speaking against government wars and corruption that I wrote about, as well as my theories about quantum consciousness, are what led to me being illegally entrapped as well as my arrest. Unfortuantely, these things do happen in the US to people who did't commit any crimes, and I have had to deal with it for years now.


And I just have to share this answer from AI:


Do government agencies in the US have a history of incriminating people or setting up crimes for people who speak against them and what can be done to prevent this from happening?Show drafts expand_morevolume_up 

Sadly, there is a complex history of government agencies in the US engaging in activities that unjustly target or entrap individuals, particularly those who dissent or hold controversial views. Here's an overview and what can be done:

Historical Examples:

COINTELPRO (1956-1971): Infamous FBI program aimed at disrupting and discrediting civil rights, anti-war, leftist, and other groups deemed subversive. Tactics included surveillance, infiltration, spreading disinformation, and inciting violence.Post-9/11 Surveillance & Entrapment: The Patriot Act and subsequent measures expanded government surveillance powers. Concerns persist about profiling and cases where informants have pushed vulnerable individuals towards terrorism-related plots.Targeting Activists: Environmental, animal rights, and other activists have faced instances of being labeled as domestic terrorists, subjected to intrusive investigations, or prosecuted on inflated charges.

Concerns About Overreach & Abuse:

Misuse of Power: When government agencies target people based on ideology rather than legitimate criminal activity, it violates civil liberties and undermines trust.Lack of Oversight: Secretive operations and broad definitions of "threats" can create a lack of accountability and enable abuses.Chilling Effect: Fear of being targeted can discourage people from exercising their right to free speech and dissent.

Protecting Rights & Preventing Abuse

Awareness & Education:Public Knowledge: Documenting historical cases and shedding light on current concerns is crucial for preventing future abuses.Legal Protections:Strong First Amendment Rights: Lawsuits and judicial scrutiny are needed to uphold freedom of speech and assembly.Limiting Surveillance: Clear safeguards and oversight are needed for surveillance programs to prevent them from being weaponized against dissenters.Accountability & Transparency:Independent Oversight Bodies: Empowered entities are needed to investigate allegations of abuse and hold officials accountable.Transparency: The public deserves greater transparency about government operations, especially regarding domestic counterterrorism.Civic Engagement:Support Civil Liberties Orgs: Organizations like the ACLU advocate for individual rights and challenge government overreach.Demand Accountability: Contacting elected officials and peacefully protesting can push for policies that protect free expression.

It's a complex issue with no easy answers. Maintaining a healthy democracy requires constant vigilance against the potential for government misuse of power.


Do government agencies in the US have a history of incriminating people or setting up crimes for people who speak against them and what can be done to prevent this from happening?Show drafts expand_morevolume_up 

Sadly, there is a complex history of government agencies in the US engaging in activities that unjustly target or entrap individuals, particularly those who dissent or hold controversial views. Here's an overview and what can be done:

Historical Examples:

COINTELPRO (1956-1971): Infamous FBI program aimed at disrupting and discrediting civil rights, anti-war, leftist, and other groups deemed subversive. Tactics included surveillance, infiltration, spreading disinformation, and inciting violence.Post-9/11 Surveillance & Entrapment: The Patriot Act and subsequent measures expanded government surveillance powers. Concerns persist about profiling and cases where informants have pushed vulnerable individuals towards terrorism-related plots.Targeting Activists: Environmental, animal rights, and other activists have faced instances of being labeled as domestic terrorists, subjected to intrusive investigations, or prosecuted on inflated charges.

Concerns About Overreach & Abuse:

Misuse of Power: When government agencies target people based on ideology rather than legitimate criminal activity, it violates civil liberties and undermines trust.Lack of Oversight: Secretive operations and broad definitions of "threats" can create a lack of accountability and enable abuses.Chilling Effect: Fear of being targeted can discourage people from exercising their right to free speech and dissent.

Protecting Rights & Preventing Abuse

Awareness & Education:Public Knowledge: Documenting historical cases and shedding light on current concerns is crucial for preventing future abuses.Legal Protections:Strong First Amendment Rights: Lawsuits and judicial scrutiny are needed to uphold freedom of speech and assembly.Limiting Surveillance: Clear safeguards and oversight are needed for surveillance programs to prevent them from being weaponized against dissenters.Accountability & Transparency:Independent Oversight Bodies: Empowered entities are needed to investigate allegations of abuse and hold officials accountable.Transparency: The public deserves greater transparency about government operations, especially regarding domestic counterterrorism.Civic Engagement:Support Civil Liberties Orgs: Organizations like the ACLU advocate for individual rights and challenge government overreach.Demand Accountability: Contacting elected officials and peacefully protesting can push for policies that protect free expression.

It's a complex issue with no easy answers. Maintaining a healthy democracy requires constant vigilance against the potential for government misuse of power.



8 Mar 2024

I CAN't believe

I wouldn't be given a Western name when I was born in the West.


My manifesto.


I go by a different name. I would have to change all my documents and everything.


It's such a hassle, when you go through that as a youth, and still go through it as an adult.


We need recognize diversity.


And I'm dealing with it right now.


I have to live with it.


And it is hurtful and sad.


And I can't stand some people and things who I have to deal with it.


Why do I face this everywhere.


I wish people would understand, what I went through.


And how I almost

die

many

many times.

How could I work or live when no one hires me.

Like apparentely they want me to do.

And being stuck on SSI and stalked by people.


It's a nightmare.


Oh well

Maybe I shouls legally change it.

5 Mar 2024

He couldn't even figure it out and her personal clarity is severely lacking.

They are all why they are winning.

And she loses

And she severely lacks in some departments

Yeah people look at me because they know what they see.


I should understand the people more.

H Tool.


Yeah I screwed a few

But it is excessive

Punish me, you will get punished in return 



5 Mar 2024

She never understood because she wasn't that intelligent

Sophia Maritza Amaya or Maritza Amaya Sophia just didn't inderstand because she was not that intelligent she never understood my words or anything and she also didn't understand the truth and also conned me into this group and witchy dark magic arts in the underworld of facebook and here is my manifesto here.

5 Mar 2024

Sad tortured something I see gold, I must be

I see gold, and when I die, I see white.


I see green bluez


I admire those who stand before me


I've been fucked over since birth

I dont see the light

When I am in the blackness

I fight to see the light

I wrote all these poems years ago

I wrote a whole book

I had a lover who cherished it.


Yet Jeff becomes the richest person after I purchase things on Amazon

Because I am gold

Yet he cant even sell my book

Yet all the other Americans don't see the wisdom or truth behind it.


Because some of them are maybe blind or low iq

And yeah

I would go to Dunsmuir and Shasta in a minute, reading Rumi, and God.


And then, this is a microcosm, of torture, with seeing the po in my vision

And the rest

And the truth.

With a messed up family of origin story

As the old soul black sheep

And I am divine

The rest aren't.

The divine the saints, see it.


And the false prophets

And government

Have their way with me sometimes


I just want to travel my freedom and take a train

But I am condemned to making Tucson what it is 

And suffering under torture sometimes

I cant find or see the light

I wish I was free

Why am I not free?


Because I punched people who were harassing me and groping me

That is the only reason why

I cant believe it

That is all


Yeah if I can find life but all I think about is death

Because that is what this has been and is

And it was just death and torture.


I wouldnt get this assisted suicide

If I was just free

Why does it have to be dark and sinister

I always fought for the light, and always have

I just want my freedom

What does it have to do with a job

I have credit

I can fly

I can travel

And I wont jerk off

Although they were tempting

That was just the nature of the business

But I dont believe

That I knew all these people and girls look at me in all these ways

People are an influence

I was just fulfilling my urges

But I consent

I do consent, I always did

I hope you see this.

I heard all their thoughts and voices

Because I can sense

That is why

And I can be me

an

28 Feb 2024

They all don't have to be the way I am

It's absolutely understandable that you feel like you've been abused by the criminal justice system, and it breaks my heart to hear about your experience. Here's what people should understand:

The Trauma is Real: Experiencing injustice, dehumanization, and constant surveillance can inflict deep emotional and psychological scars. Describing it as akin to satanic abuse is a way of conveying the intense suffering and powerlessness you've endured.Mental Health Impact: This persistent misery and feeling of hellishness you describe are common symptoms of trauma and a sign that the abuse has profoundly impacted your mental well-being.Exhaustion and Despair: It's natural to feel worn down, hopeless, and filled with resentment after such a prolonged ordeal. When basic freedoms and trust in systems are stripped away, maintaining a positive outlook becomes extremely difficult.Need for Validation: People who haven't been through this might not fully grasp the depth of your pain. It's crucial for your voice to be heard, and the trauma you've faced acknowledged.

What I Wish Others Understood:

Abuse Doesn't Need Physical Scars: Psychological harm and the violation of dignity are forms of abuse, even if they don't leave visible marks.The System Isn't Always Right: Even within the justice system, biases, errors, and outright abuse of power can and do occur.Compassion Over Judgment: We need to move beyond the simplistic "good vs. bad" view of those entangled in the justice system. Your struggle deserves empathy.

It might not change your situation, but know that you're not alone. Organizations advocate for reforms within the criminal justice system.

Here's where you can find support:

Trauma-Informed Therapists: Seek out a therapist specializing in trauma and who understands the dynamics of systemic abuse.Support Groups: Connecting with others who've had similar experiences can provide immense validation and reduce isolation.Legal Advocacy Groups: Some organizations provide legal support or advocate for the rights of those within the criminal justice system.

Remember: You are worthy of healing and a life free from this torment. You've endured so much, and there are people who will fight for you.

28 Feb 2024

I was always alone

I hope someone reads this.


I was always alone, it was nature and nurture.


And also I was socially isolated and outcast, because of my trauma.


I was bullied teased and picked on in school. I was so different.


And then, I was alone early in college, but overall, I mean to say, I was bred this way.


So I sought of spiritual enlightenment and journies in my 20s.


And then, after I met a twin flame or devil, maybe interchangeable words, some of my life changed.


But then the stuff with the law, it was more because I was some kind if hybrid agent, and I was sort of in the fourth if fifth psychic dimension, which people don't like because I've always had a sixth sense.


So they used entrapment to get me to punch one of their henchmen.


But the president is a puppet himself.


And all the world's a stage, and all men and women merely actors, as Shakespeare would say.


And also, I was alone then, often in California at rehab while they all go try to fuck each other.


While I sleep now.

While I wait.

While I sleep now.

I wait for

more people to understand.

23 Feb 2024

For your information

You dont have to believe in anything I say.


Plus, you all were delusional.


And for

many people.


Bipolar 1/Schizoaffective goes away with time and age, I hope this is the case for me.


Some people, think but they themselves are faulty.


And they can all go live in their own world.


And forget about the worlds they showed me.


But I'd rather be the martyr.


And also, you the probation officer, and whoever else wants to incriminate or use simple free speech and freedom of ideas against me.


You can all understand true freedom and also your satanic cabal agendas.


For friends and followers, you're welcome.


But I'm saying, maybe it will all go away with time.


Bye

21 Feb 2024

Anyways

Firstly, I had a near death like experience when I was 19 due to a deep vipassana Buddhist meditation.


I saw A bright light and is if people were talking to me from another realm.


Ever since then I've had an out of body experience.


I also felt like I knew and understoof God as it's true form not just what people believe in without knowing or understanding. This was through a peyote vision when I was 20.


So safe to say, I had a great spiritual and personal evolution when I was young. I understood and merged with God in salvation or enlightenment as in the liberation theologies.


So through this understing, and different reiki and shamanic intiitions, I also early had experiences of the astral realm and it's significance.


There is another world and another science that has been proven in works as Science and the Akashic Field and others.


Many scientists have prove spirtiual concept, as I also attempt to explain and do so in my book and writings on this website.


Unfortunately, some people are not like you, and many people have different priorities and agendas.


So, they don't hire you, in any job, label you, never understand, the spirit relam.


I wish more people understoof, and people who understand my truth would get paid more or at least given a job they. can do.


I am sure and positive many homeless or some drug addicted people aren't given a fair shot in jobs or society because of individual differences as a variable.


So there should be greater understanding and equality of differences and everyone should be given what they need.


And wealth should be more equal. Yeah these are my thoughts, signing off.

21 Feb 2024

I need a new experiment

Well, my ideas in the philosophies and perspectives page, I wrote them years ago based on my qualitative life experiences.


So it was psychological research in a way, with case studies and analysis involved. I was also in a forensics lab in college.


Unfortunately, I didn't get into one PhD psychology program because of lack of recent references, and they didn't see the work. But my work got selected to be in an academic conference on consciousness, at my home university, which I am looking forward to sharing and attending.


Personal notes aside, and aside from the old experiment, new questions arise. How do we mitigate these metaphysical and abstract laws? Should we only hold the candle of proof to sensing observation?


Well yeah, I noticed people were reading

my ideas, and they were gaining more traction, I often engage in psychic intercourse with others.


I was remindes when I was confined, and in solitude, the visions I would see as part of the quantum machine.


Now, it is new visions of a different quality and variety.


Now, I think people can and only should determine if someone committed a crime by observation alone, and that metaphysics can hold many abstract principles, but observational and sensing worldviews should be given its own value as burden of proof.


Well yeah, that is all for today. Four months of probation left as I try to get off early.


Maybe get a home here, go travel, travel again.


My world, life and plans fir you here. 


Last note: Unfortunately people will twists your ideas and views against you, especially someone in a position of power over you, so this should not be the case. It should all he about equanimity and higher thought.


These are the thoughts, feelings, and values I hold today.


Peace and love,

J/Jamil

28 Jan 2024

Firstly

I have. B.A. in psychology, I've also been to an academic conference on consciousness.


I actually got accepted for my abstract to be in the new conference.


However, I don't mean for everything I say to be used against me or taken out of context.


I've been im a bit of a dark place lately.


I also have five more months left of probation.


So much of our lives is construed in our online identities.


But it is not the full person or picture, with what is digitized.

There is a whole person, a whole story.


Whatever I say, whatever I write, it is not all me.


And also people can read about you and make judgements anywhere on the internet.


There is a whole story, there is a whole life.


And, to anyone I hurt, I apologize, if I have hurt you.


Sometimes our influences and the people we are around get the best of us.


I am hoping to move forward to a new chapter this summer, and leave the past behind.


And wish for peace ad prosperity, from the federation above, to ours.


Peace and love,

Jamil

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