My life. My poetry, travel, and musings.

My life. My poetry, travel, and musings.


My personal blog: Musings and Thought

8 Jan 2024

On my ideas

I think they are still valid.

In essence a quantum reality is an informed reality.

Psychiatrists endlessly prescribe medications for a psychosis that doesn't even cure the perceptions themselves.

Science has it's own flaws and biases.

Spirituality is the way to truth and higher understanding.

I redacted a lot of my previous writings on government and public policy.

I thinl these people are normally flawed and not perfect like anyone else.

They have their own misconceptions about me and what happened to me in New York.

On my life. Probation is utterly meaningless and unfair and imposed.

And they need to back off from my head and my apartment.

I see their faces. They are inconsiderate and rude.

They are rude, and prone to corruption themselves.

One day, now that I have the money, I will leave it behind in a new land.

They don't need to biometrically scan me or track me in another country.

And social security is paid bu taxes as a social safety net and not by the government.

So if they try to use that against me, they should understand that basic concept.

And they dont need to use my ideas against me, they all did anyways, My ideas should be used responsibly.

So they need more accountability.

That is all.

31 Dec 2023

Status today

I am feeling ok.

I am still stuck and being under my sentence, but it doesn't have to he invasive or rude to anyone.

Things with my family are healthier.

I have applied to a PhD program at the U of A, although it is tough to say where education at an institution will be with internet and particularly AI these days.

I had a good Christmas and coming into the new year.

I post AI my podcast and all old words on here.

I wish you the best, and wish humanity and the world to get better.

Sometimes I think my thoughts and beliefs and world is influenced by technology, and spirituality, it has been my vision for a while, I hope someone shares it.

Sometimes I think my shadow is watching, people can see me, I hear people.

I would like to see more science and progress to materialism and immaterialism and coalescing the two.

I think all my philosophies, here, explain that.

And my poetry and pictures too, to share.

This automation and AI is reaching levels we hadn't seen before.

I just hope we have the foundation, to use them correctly.

And still believe in a higher power, whatever you want to call it.

So here are my thoughts and words. Thanks for visiting my site.

5 Dec 2023

Update on today

I think the whole governmenr agencies and us probation are corrupt and filled with nazis

I experience it firsthand everyday.

They stalk and abuse in your and head and gaslight you into thinking you're the crazy one.

I wish they would all go to hell.

They are such corrupt and dirty facists and Marxists running this country.

All the while they get richer, and probation gets dirtier.

Screw them, they can all go fuck themselves.

4 Dec 2023

Current thoughts and frustrations

Firstly I was sort of forced to take a guilty plea or risk jail time when the government wins the majority of the cases because of corruption.

I was sentenced to two years probation.

I have always preferred and enjoyed a more nomadic and free lifestyle. I would rather be homeless sometimes.

I am usually forced and court ordered to be stuck in treatment, largely because of some of the education I had, it drove me permanently mad with psychosis.

I dont mean to complain, but my whole life has been a sad story.

I write about it, no one seems to care or it doesn't get any traction.

I am sad and mad, in what appears to be a declining American empire, but it doesn't have to be that way if the people in power woke up.

Sometimes I think I am just in this void of space viewing all these figures and people.

Not many people believe what I see.

And I have been stuck in an apartment by myself for a year, on a court order.

No one hires me for work even when I apply multiple times. I don't know where I would be without family.

These people in office have 8 million net worth and live in a big house, and most people are struggling to afford rent and find affordable housing.

I am stuck with the rest of them, in this unequal economy. I would like to see wealth redistribution.

Teachers educated me, in a lot of different ways, yet I am the product of them, and I am seen as a madman because of it.

Yet, aren't they really the mad ones sometimes? I mean, who is really sane.

So I am stuck here until it ends, at least it is only another half year of it, and I have an attorney, family, and dear friends fighting for it.

Sometimes I just get so frustrated in my world, I'm sure there is a lot of people who may feel the same or similar.

At least, some people try to care, the rest can go fuck themselves.

I speak to myself. I am the machine. I wish for, a more prosperous idyllic place to live, and a more prosperous lifestyle and way of living.

We should be a more advanced civilization, by the future.


23 Nov 2023

Updated thoughts about things

Sometimes I get angry, don't we all.

I am stuck and poor in a weak economy and can't find work.

I apologized to two people because of how I treated them, including the probation officer.

However, the whole thing was very ethnically offensive to begin with, I was pulled aside probably because I am a minority, I was in a line with all the other minorities.

And you know what, to put it concisely, I am absolutelt convinced and sure that the liberal agenda has a child sex trafficking ring atthe heart of the whole thing.

They normalize pedophila, and that part about them needs to change.

I think Republicans have more traditional values, and fight against stuff like that.

Still, I don't know who I'd vote for.

I think a lot of election systems are rigged, so is the world and economy.

The world is in flux, based on our orientation, and oue beliefs and views influence it.

So we can make it positive if we wish.

For every reaction, there is an equal and opposite reaction, in force, matter, and life itself.

That is all.


20 Nov 2023

People follow me around

Way back in the day it was this sort of pedophile ring who would see little kids through their screen and camera.

Then again, I always saw people, even thise my age.

Then, there was a lull, and it was all just friends regular people and family when I traveled the world.

When I got in jail and rehabs, it was celebs and Illuminatti, whatever you want to call that or that means.

It can be anyone, now it has been everyone.

I take the highest dose if antipsychotics, they still don't work.

It is like this was the way I was made, to see people.

If I had to diagnose myself anything, it would be schizoaffective disorder, and PTSD.

So this is what I have l, this is what I live with, this is what all my poetry and writing is about.

And it explains it, that people get psychosis through their words and images.

And everyone's soul or spirit exists in space-time curvature and the quantum realm

It is all depicted in Hollywood and readings, some of this technology is just likea modern simulation running peoples lives.

And is there a cure? Who knows.

But it is what I have lived with for much of my life.

On the bright side, I'm alive. I dont know how many more years I can live with it, I think of assisted sucide sometimes,it is reallt demoralizing that no one will hire you because of what you have.

Then again, they were all minimum wage jobs.

So, I live off my social security, and wait patiently for section 8 housing, that is all I have.

And I hate people abusing me, using me. I feel everything. I feel everyone, I'm an empath, I hate it.

16 Nov 2023

Some thoughts

I wrote a lot about my critiques of the government and American New World Order.

This was simply because, I had a variety of cultural and personal experience. I was a very free and intelligent person, and have I seen the wrong they have done to people in the past.

Unfortunately, some people probably read everything I wrote, even though they were in my files.

The US ranks 70th on global governance corruption scales, that is pretty low relatively.

Also, I was used for my psychic abilities and remote viewing ablities by the Trump administration and the CIA. It turned back on me when Biden was elected in office, and that changed, because I wrote about my negative experiences being used by the CIA. They set me up for a crime in NY for being a whistleblower and writing things about the CIA  and government.

Also, Mark Zuckerberg is corrupt and sells data and ideas to the government, and his new facebook and instagram is filled with bots and scammers, and the Social Network and Social Dillemma are two accurate portrayals of him.

So if you think this is all unbelievable, believe me not, but the evidence is in plain view. They manipulate and censor people, including myself.

7 Nov 2023


What is really a disease is governmental figures shouting you through your head and telling you you have schizophrenia and need treatment. They probably also have schizophrenia and obsessive compulsive tendencies on top of that.

Firstly, rehabilitation centers and treatment are just a means of social control, and you often run into people who make things worse.

Second some therapists don't even try hard enough to listen and they don't understand certain things or are poorly trained, and also burned with a high caseload so can't devote their full empathy or consideration to helping someone. Or they are just imperfect human beings themselves.

It is is all just a means of brainwashing and mental manipulation, and I am in it. 

Because I have always had some psychic abilities or sixth sense, they try to say all these things, but they are the ones hearing my inner voice anyways, and it threatens their totalitarian control the people in poltics, the law enforcement.

America has one of the highest incarceration rates and one of the highest recidivism rates, so something obviously isn't working for these people running these systems. Maybe they are all running it for profit and not human rehabilitation.

4 Nov 2023

My thoughts on split realities

In my opinion, schizophrenia or psychotic features aren’t always an imbalance of dopamine.

I believe, these people have accesed an altered state of conciousness in their lives, and live in parallel worlds.

If the multiverse theory is true, which many scientists are beginning to believe, then maybe many of these people are living in the different universe.

A parallel universe, where possiblities are endless. As in, our minds react to the universe, and with our science and technology, we can better study these split universes.

I take an interdisciplinary approach. The James Webb Space telescope is proving many of our assumptions of the universe wrong. The Big Bang theory is changing.

Also, if we believe in the ‘observation effect,’ that the act of oberving an object changes the observation itself, then we will see that we are influencing the stars and planets.

It is being ovserved that the universe erupted in eons, not just one big bang, so you could say, if you believe that we ourselves influence the universe, that the universe expanded and contracting coinciding with all of our civilizations appearing, disappearing, and recourring.

Plato had the idea that each soul councides to a star, so maybe the universe, stars, and planets are coinciding with the people being born and dying in and out od existence.

You can have a scientific approach while also having a spiritual. And they say in the beginning there was light, which created the universe, and the people in it.

You can have your own thoughts observation, but understand, that life is one great mystery that its existence may have been mysterious itself.

So this is my, synergistic world view. How could the universe come from nothing? How could we come from nothing? Evolution can also be in congruence with creationism.

The universe, is influenced by our own thoughts and perceptions. This is what many people are believing to be true.

There is the parts, than the whole, of the machinery in which we live in.


29 Oct 2023

Brief thoughts on war and science

Regarding people who I have heard responding to my other thoughts:

I think your psychological type has a great deal to do with how you perceive the world.

I think Jung has a very accurate assesment of psychological types, and it is just as valid as big 5.

I think some people just try to dismiss religion and spirituality, but look at where their weaponry of technology has gotten them, two world wars and on the brink of the third.

The problem is people lose their ethics and values when they worship science and technology and only that.

People need to wake up to a spiritual reality that isn't blinded by their ideologies. We all have idealogies, but it creates something known as 'idealogical blindness' a term noted by a social psychologist.

Religions are also an ideology, so is extreme forms of science and bad science, and corrupted science. It is definitely also a religion that doesn't always even produce the best results.

You can have bad or extreme forms of everything.

So don't follow the crowd, question your beliefs and ways, be an independent critical thinker, above all else.

You need to be wise to all ways of thinking.

That is all, then maybe we will know peace, and not be religious or scientific killers with people, as I read in the news, asking chatgpt how to do terrible and demonic things like plan an attack or bomb somewhere.

That is all, to share some thoughts on my previous philosophies.


22 Oct 2023

My podcast and episode on spotify.

15 Oct 2023

My thoughts on the state of the wars and world today

There upstanding conflict in Ukraine and the Middle East.

Many sides blame each other for the conflict.

I believe people tried to impose roles views and values on one another.

People hate extremism. No one should be too extreme, it leads to conflict, and be tolerant and open to one another's views.

The world seems to be at war, but remember there is a whole world out there.

And so many of our conflicts are engineered, we believe what we read on the Internet.

People also profit off war, many people do, there is great incentive in it.

I think it was an evil attack on Isreal, and there is many infighting and groupthinking on extremist group.

I do believe, the individual prevails over group think concsiousness, just look at all the movements over history. 

The Arabs and Jews had peace in their history, they did have it, so peace is possible.

I know everything seems tough and a mess right now, in our own world and lives.

But we reality is what we create.

Hang in there.

14 Oct 2023


What beauty could I say

If a new woman approached me

I'm in the technocracy

She seems real to me

Only time will tell

I get lost in the other world

In the other worlds

And I see a new sight

But she can come to me

It is better this way too you see 

Is everything on a screen real and what it seems

Only time will tell

But we must get outside 

To see humanity

Still I am comfortable with where I am and what I see

Life is ok

I don't know which side is right

But they've been killing each other for centuries

But an open border

Maybe was a contrast to the wall

It is better?

Depends on your view

It is relative

I once roamed the world twice

But now I get lost at every sight

Struck and blind

She can come to me

And things will be alright

Maybe I get lost

Maybe I get so devasted

But what can be

The future is and always

What we imagine it to believe you see.

4 Oct 2023

Some things I haven't shared, even in my book

It was the illuminatti and New World Order Agenda that led to my arrest.

They gangstalk people and make you feel like you're the crazy one

It's little exclusive elite club, with an extensive rooted history that changed over time.

I even live alone, and they stalk me here too.

If this ever happens to you, rely on the people around you, the people you live with, and everyday citizens.

Be good to people. Don't let them try to gaslight you.

Who are they to prosecute, and judge you, when in reality they caused the whole mess.

And try to tell you it's you who's ill, when they were all involved.

Their job now is to just leave me to myself until the sentence date is over, which wasn't even a fair trial or plea to begin with. It was all wrong and unfaid

I write about it extensively, how other people have the same experiences that I had in another reality, with schizophrenia or whatever you want to call it but it is hust an alternate reality but a very real one.

They make it real, they gangstalk, gaslight, and persecute you. Most therapists are well meaning but they will even try to convince you that it all you when in reality there's a myriad of factors involved with other people who just try to label you with the disorder when in reality they were all playing a part in the etheric realm.

I can name names, plenty of names. I don't care. I did name a lot of them.  I have nothing to hide. They are people who sold their solds for worldly gain and are part of satanic abusive rings.

All part of their agenda and disinformation.

I'm not afraid of anything, I can live another day. This whole shady business and system has forced me to look at things in some better ways. No thanks to them.

I was treading along a dark path that they and accomplices led me on. However I certainly wasn't the only one involved. These people were also involved. I've taken resonsibility for my actions. they simply haven't.

They've persecuted me like they did all the freat speakers of truth, Bob Marley, Bill Hicks, 2pac, and many more. They did the same thing to me, but with setting me up to commit a crime, which the FBI is so often known to do, being forced to defend myself. Simply because I wrote about some things.

But this was a slow death. Still physical death is not the end, and you reap what you sow.

This is to all my friends, fans and allies. I cherish you.

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